ok umm i dont kno if like this one either but.
Cautious
I'm being cautious this timecarefully balancing on this love
watching my step
trying to figure out what he's really thinking ofYes I'm really scared
but who wouldn't be?
It's my heart that's being juggled
and who knows if this is meant to beI don't wanna get hurt
I repeat over and over again
but I see Mr. Heartache coming...he's sadly becomes my friend
It's hard to know what's an illusion
what's real and what's fakebut I guess it's a huge riskI've chosen to take
My heart is still guarded by a wall
that he's breaking a bit more each daywith a hammer called hope and sweet talk
and I'm weak to that... what can I say?
He knows he owns my heart that I'm always gonna be there
I wish I could turn around and walk awayto see if he would actually care
My mind tells me "walk away... say no!"but unfortunately my heart's winning
and it tells me "wait a second longer... don't let go"He says he wont hurt me
but he already did once beforeI'm walking on loose string
should I stay or should I go?I need him to prove to me
that he does really care
and to show methat he'll always be there
I wanna feel safeto know we'll be something more someday
that he's not messing with my heart
that he'll love me today, tomorrow, and everyday
but I have to face reality...he ain't proving that to me
all he's doing is confirming my fear...that this was never meant to be I guess I'll have to wait there's nothing more to doI'm risking my heart once again If you were me... would you?
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
day 19 = ]
stupid boys.
well my boy isn't stupid today
I'm laying there beside you,Looking deep into your eyes
,They appear to be so beautiful,And they don't tell any lies
I'm laying there beside you,
I reach out and feel your arm,A single touch of beauty
,And a smile is my charm
I'm laying there beside you
,Just laughing the night away,
There's no place I'd rather be,
Then here with you today
I'm laying there beside you,I sing a song for all to hear,'
Never did I imagine today,
That I'd be laying hereI'm laying there beside you,
There's no place I'd rather be,
Then laying here with you,And you laying here with me
well my boy isn't stupid today
I'm laying there beside you,Looking deep into your eyes
,They appear to be so beautiful,And they don't tell any lies
I'm laying there beside you,
I reach out and feel your arm,A single touch of beauty
,And a smile is my charm
I'm laying there beside you
,Just laughing the night away,
There's no place I'd rather be,
Then here with you today
I'm laying there beside you,I sing a song for all to hear,'
Never did I imagine today,
That I'd be laying hereI'm laying there beside you,
There's no place I'd rather be,
Then laying here with you,And you laying here with me
day 17
i was watching law and order yesterday and it was about two kids loving eash other but not being together . and killing them self
it was really sad
Every night she would cry,
Thinking that maybe she would rather die
Then to see him with her
She want them to be as they were.
At least once a day she slits her wrist.
It hurts most when she sees them kiss.
Why must he flaunt her around?
She hit her knees, then the ground.
She thinks about him day and night,
Someone called 911 tonight.
shes dead he yelled.
In her hand a gun was held.
In her wrist they found his name
The center of his attention she became.
What had he done?A chain reaction this had become,
Because later that day,
They found him the same way.
The words [too late.] in his wrist.
And a note saying without her he could not exist.
Now their together
In a happier place,
Both with a smile on each face.
it was really sad
Every night she would cry,
Thinking that maybe she would rather die
Then to see him with her
She want them to be as they were.
At least once a day she slits her wrist.
It hurts most when she sees them kiss.
Why must he flaunt her around?
She hit her knees, then the ground.
She thinks about him day and night,
Someone called 911 tonight.
shes dead he yelled.
In her hand a gun was held.
In her wrist they found his name
The center of his attention she became.
What had he done?A chain reaction this had become,
Because later that day,
They found him the same way.
The words [too late.] in his wrist.
And a note saying without her he could not exist.
Now their together
In a happier place,
Both with a smile on each face.
day 16
my cousin is in iraq
but he will be home in july,
don't worry.
so i wrote about him
He fights for me, He fights for you, The dead of night, To his country he's true. Even over his family,He choses the nation.Twas his choice to fight, For this occupation. The love he has, Must be larger than us. The valiance he mends, Is more than enough. Saving lives, And watching others go. Seeing them die, The feeling I'll never know. The battle for Democracy, This war for peace. He is strong, And so is his niece. He fights for me, Is what I've learned. This title of appreciation, Is what I've earned.
but he will be home in july,
don't worry.
so i wrote about him
He fights for me, He fights for you, The dead of night, To his country he's true. Even over his family,He choses the nation.Twas his choice to fight, For this occupation. The love he has, Must be larger than us. The valiance he mends, Is more than enough. Saving lives, And watching others go. Seeing them die, The feeling I'll never know. The battle for Democracy, This war for peace. He is strong, And so is his niece. He fights for me, Is what I've learned. This title of appreciation, Is what I've earned.
day 15
soldiers.
In the haze, so thick we cannot see, we will go.Through the rain, so hard we believe it will never end, we will go.Sands so rough and hot our skin turns to stone, we will go.In all these lands, god hath created, so harsh and desolate, when our country makes the call, we will go.We go for our mothers,Brothers, our sisters and sons. We go for our fathers, our daughters, our husbands and wives. We fight for our country, our god and our lands, fighting for our rights, making our stand. Wherever we are needed, no matter the terrain, we will be ready in moments notice, minute men are our names. For we are soldiers, defenders of others, we took that extra step, we went the extra mile. WE ARE, AMERICAN SOLDIERS.
well i was thinking i think i may want to join the army?or marines?
In the haze, so thick we cannot see, we will go.Through the rain, so hard we believe it will never end, we will go.Sands so rough and hot our skin turns to stone, we will go.In all these lands, god hath created, so harsh and desolate, when our country makes the call, we will go.We go for our mothers,Brothers, our sisters and sons. We go for our fathers, our daughters, our husbands and wives. We fight for our country, our god and our lands, fighting for our rights, making our stand. Wherever we are needed, no matter the terrain, we will be ready in moments notice, minute men are our names. For we are soldiers, defenders of others, we took that extra step, we went the extra mile. WE ARE, AMERICAN SOLDIERS.
well i was thinking i think i may want to join the army?or marines?
day 14
killing others..
For we will never know quite whyA person would, a person could; take aLife of someone else, a personLoved by family. Could you tell me,Exactly what was thought, when people heardNo silence when the deadly bullet shot.Ode, to theFamilies, who lostFathers, mothers and more.I truly feel your pain butCannot do anything for yourEternal rage that youReceived from the bullet that wasSuddenly shot with no mercy
sorry i just saw some soldiers on tv that died
For we will never know quite whyA person would, a person could; take aLife of someone else, a personLoved by family. Could you tell me,Exactly what was thought, when people heardNo silence when the deadly bullet shot.Ode, to theFamilies, who lostFathers, mothers and more.I truly feel your pain butCannot do anything for yourEternal rage that youReceived from the bullet that wasSuddenly shot with no mercy
sorry i just saw some soldiers on tv that died
day 12 or 13
Clean out your locker,Summer is here!Isn't it a shocker?Summer is here!180 days of torture have come to an end,And now the hallways ring with cheer.Everyone is so happy,Because summer's finally here!Roll up your beach towels,Take a walk on a peer.Haven't you heard?Summer is here!Say goodbye to friends,Wave farewell to the long harsh year.Everybody knows now,Summer is here!But wait, what day is it?Only Thursday, I fear.I guess I'll have to wait for tomorrow,Until summer's finally here.
flash drive
i cant wait for school to be over
if you cant tell
flash drive
i cant wait for school to be over
if you cant tell
day 12
ok so umm i was writing about my bestfriend.
dont think i like it though
A friend issomeone who is concerned with everything you do
A friend issomeone who understands whatever you do
A friend issomeone who tells you the truth about yourself
A friend issomeone who knows
what you are going throughat all times
A friend is someone who does not compete with you
A friend is someone who is genuinely happy for
you when things go well
A friend is someone who tries to cheer you up when
things don't go well
A friend is extension of yourself
without which you are not complete
dont think i like it though
A friend issomeone who is concerned with everything you do
A friend issomeone who understands whatever you do
A friend issomeone who tells you the truth about yourself
A friend issomeone who knows
what you are going throughat all times
A friend is someone who does not compete with you
A friend is someone who is genuinely happy for
you when things go well
A friend is someone who tries to cheer you up when
things don't go well
A friend is extension of yourself
without which you are not complete
day 11
There are pictures of your children every whereThey all stand tall and proudBut can you tell me Who is that girl in the back groundHer eyes are just like yours And she looks just like your kidsBut I have never seen herBut she always in the back groundIs she friend or familyYou past her every time she was thereInvisible to she isHer eyes seem so sadLike she had broken downThey never mention her name Or ask her to come inShe just stands in the back groundHoping to one day feel her mother's loveBut how soon she was forgottenAnd just tossed asideYou forgot your own childAnd the way she even lookedBut you can still see her in the back groundAnd every one still asksWho is that girl
another one on the flash drive
another one on the flash drive
day 10
hey guys hows life im pretty bored ,
im in wellness walking and because of my knee
i have to sit up here all period.
which is boring
With a glance of true love, my hearts beat struck a pace,Like Melody's of the piano each key tuned my heart,A harmony filled my soul with words of such innocence.And while each word was sung I felt your sweet embrace.The pain I knew around me was what you came to erase,As the ace of hearts was delt straight into my hands.Pure beauty carved into the depths of my hearts soul,Precious like a piece of art looked upon with gentleness,Our life became as one, as out souls danced to the melody,Loneliness washed away as our hearts became whole,Fitted together perfectly two last pieces of the puzzle,While the picture of our lives finally was put into place.Feelings of being understood drape our hearts mind,Words of such love spoken in dreams of our own,Cupids arrows of gold shot through heavens crystal skies,Two people made of imperfections now one of a kind,An angel of darkness now holds me in sweet surrender,For he is the star of my shining nights sky, He is my life.
stupid i kno but hell its the only thing on my flash drive
im in wellness walking and because of my knee
i have to sit up here all period.
which is boring
With a glance of true love, my hearts beat struck a pace,Like Melody's of the piano each key tuned my heart,A harmony filled my soul with words of such innocence.And while each word was sung I felt your sweet embrace.The pain I knew around me was what you came to erase,As the ace of hearts was delt straight into my hands.Pure beauty carved into the depths of my hearts soul,Precious like a piece of art looked upon with gentleness,Our life became as one, as out souls danced to the melody,Loneliness washed away as our hearts became whole,Fitted together perfectly two last pieces of the puzzle,While the picture of our lives finally was put into place.Feelings of being understood drape our hearts mind,Words of such love spoken in dreams of our own,Cupids arrows of gold shot through heavens crystal skies,Two people made of imperfections now one of a kind,An angel of darkness now holds me in sweet surrender,For he is the star of my shining nights sky, He is my life.
stupid i kno but hell its the only thing on my flash drive
Friday, May 18, 2007
day9
Ok so im in school at the libaray
because im sick and i need my mommy to come get me
i have a fevver
but no one will come and get me
grr
this is my day off for week two
because im sick and i need my mommy to come get me
i have a fevver
but no one will come and get me
grr
this is my day off for week two
Thursday, May 17, 2007
day 8
umm well what to write about
how about english.. [[ english book next to me]]
dear Mr. oneil,
thank you so very much of fucking me over.
ok well your class was a peice of cake A's not problem
you say go ahead do honers no problem your great at english
quater one= E quater two=E
so i complained to my mommy and i got moved
quater three=A
so honestly what were you thinking honers english my ass.
there is no way i could have passed that
how about english.. [[ english book next to me]]
dear Mr. oneil,
thank you so very much of fucking me over.
ok well your class was a peice of cake A's not problem
you say go ahead do honers no problem your great at english
quater one= E quater two=E
so i complained to my mommy and i got moved
quater three=A
so honestly what were you thinking honers english my ass.
there is no way i could have passed that
grrr bitch
ok well i dont kno what to write about... i havent had a good day... actually i had a really shitty day...so umm here we go.
im packing my bags.
im out of here im sick of you.
and your damn stare.
ok im not prefect.
but hell you aren't even close.
i try my best to live by the rules.
but it's never enough.
clean your room, do the dishes.
last time i checked i was your child
not your slave.
i mean damn if im going to work this hard i should get a job.
atleast that would pay me.
but wait that wouldnt work either.
because once again your wont drive me anywhere.
" my mom stomach hurts really bad can we see a doctor."
no stupid your just saying that because you dont want to go to school tomorrow
NO Bitch tomorrow is saturday i dont have school
i give and give and all you do is take
so today im done
im packed and im running away
lol sorry im just really mad at my mom
but anywat ill write later
im packing my bags.
im out of here im sick of you.
and your damn stare.
ok im not prefect.
but hell you aren't even close.
i try my best to live by the rules.
but it's never enough.
clean your room, do the dishes.
last time i checked i was your child
not your slave.
i mean damn if im going to work this hard i should get a job.
atleast that would pay me.
but wait that wouldnt work either.
because once again your wont drive me anywhere.
" my mom stomach hurts really bad can we see a doctor."
no stupid your just saying that because you dont want to go to school tomorrow
NO Bitch tomorrow is saturday i dont have school
i give and give and all you do is take
so today im done
im packed and im running away
lol sorry im just really mad at my mom
but anywat ill write later
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
day 5
well i was watching tv and i say a bunch of kids jumping off rocks in to water so i wrote about it
standing on the edge
hand in hand
we began
your smile and ask are you ready
i nodd yes , but inside my heads screaming
this is stupid dont do it
theirs a chance you wont live
we take a step
here we go you yell jump as you let go of my hand
now im dropping faster and faster.
i look down to see rocks
everywhere i look
right now i have to sink or swim so i tuck my legs and fall..
standing on the edge
hand in hand
we began
your smile and ask are you ready
i nodd yes , but inside my heads screaming
this is stupid dont do it
theirs a chance you wont live
we take a step
here we go you yell jump as you let go of my hand
now im dropping faster and faster.
i look down to see rocks
everywhere i look
right now i have to sink or swim so i tuck my legs and fall..
day 4
umm you have all seen this before but i have been working on it
and changed it up a little
what you think
dancing
your body just glides
with the beat of the song
thats been stuck in my mind
for months
your arms are tree branches
swaying in the cool breeze
on this chilly summer day
i want to join your dance
but i know im not going
to glide as graceful as a
ballerina into your heart
my left footed self
trips down the stairs of love
ill try to learn from your rythmic symatry
hiding the fact that your my buddha
my totem and everything you do i
wish i could do to
i say no , but you pull me into your chest
i rush through your veins
and flow into your soul
your hearts is a hardcore rave
beating with the base of the song
thoughts of me flicker like glow sticks
through the party
your whisper just feel the music
but all i feel is your heart beating against mine
you hold me close like a bear holds its cub.
we spin and twist like flowers falling from the sky
wishing your pull me along like a rag doll.
in this dance we call love
but baby together
i know we'd be strong
and changed it up a little
what you think
dancing
your body just glides
with the beat of the song
thats been stuck in my mind
for months
your arms are tree branches
swaying in the cool breeze
on this chilly summer day
i want to join your dance
but i know im not going
to glide as graceful as a
ballerina into your heart
my left footed self
trips down the stairs of love
ill try to learn from your rythmic symatry
hiding the fact that your my buddha
my totem and everything you do i
wish i could do to
i say no , but you pull me into your chest
i rush through your veins
and flow into your soul
your hearts is a hardcore rave
beating with the base of the song
thoughts of me flicker like glow sticks
through the party
your whisper just feel the music
but all i feel is your heart beating against mine
you hold me close like a bear holds its cub.
we spin and twist like flowers falling from the sky
wishing your pull me along like a rag doll.
in this dance we call love
but baby together
i know we'd be strong
day 3
hey sorry i havent updated in a really long time i have been out becuase of my leg pretty shitty..
this is old and i havent really finshed it. butt i dont kno what i wanna add
The first 30 days of my new life
Day 1
4:32 A.M, the buzz of my alarm shot like arrows into my ears. But today was different. I didn’t reach for the snooze button I just jumped right out if bed. Let me inteduce my self my name is Charli Ryzic and im a 17 year old senior that just graduated yesterday. Half my heart is in New York and today’s the day I finally get it back. You may not understand but soon you will
On the way out of my room I grabbed my phone and its charger and my sunglasses. I call for my puppy so she can get in the car as I walk through the kitchen I grab a pop tart hit the red button on the wall and slam the big white door behind me the garage opens but its still dark outside. I climb into my car and drive 15 minutes to the train station. 5:02 comes along and Lucy, my puppy and me get onto the train I find our seat. The only thing that I could think of what that of was I really hope he doesn’t sleep in and forget to pick me up’s caught myself staring out the window and slowly fall asleep. Only to wake up to the voice in the sky telling me” please grab all your things we will be pulling into the station within five minute “. Butterflies were jumping in my tummy when the train came to a stop. 7:42 A.M the sun barely out when I slowly walked down the three stairs till my feet were both on the solid ground. I was finally here, in New York City. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. I only packed what I needed two bags, one for clothes and the other for my computer. I looked everywhere I didn’t see him anywhere. The train slowly pulled away picking up speed as if went. Lucy barked and I jumped quickly turning to see the problem and there he was standing there out of breath like he just ran a marthon. He spook “sorry baby I got stuck in traffic “. I was speechless, my baby just standing there looking just the same as he did that summer. Just a little taller and has more muscle
this is old and i havent really finshed it. butt i dont kno what i wanna add
The first 30 days of my new life
Day 1
4:32 A.M, the buzz of my alarm shot like arrows into my ears. But today was different. I didn’t reach for the snooze button I just jumped right out if bed. Let me inteduce my self my name is Charli Ryzic and im a 17 year old senior that just graduated yesterday. Half my heart is in New York and today’s the day I finally get it back. You may not understand but soon you will
On the way out of my room I grabbed my phone and its charger and my sunglasses. I call for my puppy so she can get in the car as I walk through the kitchen I grab a pop tart hit the red button on the wall and slam the big white door behind me the garage opens but its still dark outside. I climb into my car and drive 15 minutes to the train station. 5:02 comes along and Lucy, my puppy and me get onto the train I find our seat. The only thing that I could think of what that of was I really hope he doesn’t sleep in and forget to pick me up’s caught myself staring out the window and slowly fall asleep. Only to wake up to the voice in the sky telling me” please grab all your things we will be pulling into the station within five minute “. Butterflies were jumping in my tummy when the train came to a stop. 7:42 A.M the sun barely out when I slowly walked down the three stairs till my feet were both on the solid ground. I was finally here, in New York City. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. I only packed what I needed two bags, one for clothes and the other for my computer. I looked everywhere I didn’t see him anywhere. The train slowly pulled away picking up speed as if went. Lucy barked and I jumped quickly turning to see the problem and there he was standing there out of breath like he just ran a marthon. He spook “sorry baby I got stuck in traffic “. I was speechless, my baby just standing there looking just the same as he did that summer. Just a little taller and has more muscle
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